I've decided that 2013 will be about de-bricking the wall I've built around myself and fully exposing myself (metaphorically, not physically -flashing doesn't appeal to me). I've been doing a lot of ~deep~ thinking as of late, and when you take away all of life's distractions and get to the basics of your life and what you enjoy, it's those things you should make more time for and these things are what I am going to focus on this year.
So what are these basics that I enjoy?
My basic pleasures in life are my family and friends who I feel I don't see enough of and are not aware of just how much I love and appreciate them. I love painting. I love taking photographs. I love going on long, lonesome walks with no direction or purpose. I love creating things, I love cooking, I love travelling.
It's very easy to get home from work, pour yourself a glass of wine and plonk yourself on the sofa but I find once my bum gets comfortable I can't muster the energy or motivation to do anything else no matter how much I think I'll enjoy it. I am your typical daydreamer - I think of all of these amazingly fantastic concepts and ideas and that is how they remain - ideas that never materialise. I don't know if I'm scared of the fact that it may play out differently to how I envisage thus not risking wasting my time, but unless I do it I'll never know!
I'm not one for New Years Resolutions but I'm all for promises, and I promise myself the following:
1. Take time out to enjoy the small pleasures in life, no matter how insignificant others think they are.
2. Get back onto the photography scene. I used to have shoots and weddings booked most months but due to personal reasons, insecurities and constant self criticism it took a back seat but not this year; I've polished my portfolio, the images have been sent off for printing and my website is finally being re-constructed.
3. Take a step back from Technology. I know technology makes the world go round so it seems, but I find it wastes my time, and while I'm laughing at youtube video's and pictures of cats, I could be doing something a lot more productive.
4. Health kick! I don't want to say I'm going on a diet, or going to join a gym because everyone and their mother is doing this at the moment and to be honest I'd rather stab myself in the eye with a rusty fork than fight with some fitness warrior over a treadmill. I'm just going to drink less, eat better and move more.
5. Travel more. I understand that unless I win the lottery, the chance of me going on thirty holidays this year is highly unlikely. However, if I stop going out so much and blowing £100 in a weekend and save it, I can use that for more weekend breaks, home or abroad. I'm going to Ibiza in June for a friend's birthday, and while words cannot describe my excitement but I want 2013 to be the year where I visit the place I've always wanted to go - Venice. Ever since I was a child I've been fascinated by Venice and it's winding canals and rich history and culture and I just want to sit on a canal bank and paint the scenery.
6. Go on a course and learn a new skill. Self explanatory really.
This isn't really a promise, but it's a quote which I aim to live by this year: You can only go somewhere you've never been by doing something you've never done.
I wish you all an incredible 2013 xx